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Blow Jobs
I HATE THEM! I hate them I hate them I hate them!!! (I'm not one for unnecessary punctuation but right now, this is necessary.) I really do. They are boring, my jaw hurts, and Sasha only considers it a blowjob if it's "to completion". I had a chance to have sex today. He's horny, but the sex is on one condition, I go down on him and get him hard. To most reading this, you may think "Well that's not to completion", and you are right. Except for just the physical act of going down, is like getting a mule to walk. No seriously, I freeze in place. I feel my heels digging into the floor and my throat closes up because I'm trying to think of away not to say "no" right out.
Sasha and I have been together for six years. SIX. Not once during that time did I ever give him bj's on a regular basis. In fact, most of the relationship goes like this: every few months or so we get into a huge argument over "doesn't it make you feel good to make me feel good?"
...No it doesn't.
That's a harsh thing to say. I'm not saying I don't get enjoyment when he gets enjoyment. He's using that question as a way to try and get me to like oral sex.
S: "You like it when we have sex, right?"
Me: "Yes"
S: "It feels good, right?"
Me: "Yeah."
S: "We both feel good when doing it, right?"
Me: "Yeess." (What's your point here buddy?!)
S: "Well I get pleasure from making my partners feel good, and you get pleasure from us having sex, and blowjobs make me feel good. Why don't you want to make me feel good?!"
AND THERE IT IS LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!! The question ALL men ask to guilt their partners into giving head! and AHHHHAHWEHWEHWEHIAWEGHILAWGHIPAgHEGHIPweghipWEGHIPwgenlkWEGHweghipWGEHIPwge!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD TO ME!!! I'm on my knees, my jaw hurts, YOU TAKE FORTY FUCKING MINUTES TO CUM!! NO ONE WANTS TO BOB THEIR HEAD UP AND DOWN FOR FORTY FUCKING MINUTES!!
And you know what he says? "Well if you don't go down on me, I won't go down on you."
And my answer? "Okay." *Shrugs* "No seriously. That's okay if you go down on me. You can pride yourself on being great at oral (male or female - he's bi), and that's you. But I don't like cunnilingus. It's really not that great."
The only time I actually liked a guy doing down on me, was the first time it was ever done. I was 19 and it was awesome. But I had an experienced guy going down on me and it was MY FIRST TIME. Everything is sensitive down there. No matter who's done it, it's never been as good as it was that first time. Maybe I'm looking for it to be?
But anyway, there have been a few times where Sasha has gone down on me and made me cum and it feels awesome. But he ruins it all by going "Okay my turn!" ...wha-wha-what?! That was not part of this deal. If we're fooling around and you decide to go south, I am in no way obligated to take the trip with you. And then it just turns into a fight.
I've googled the phrase "I hate blowjobs" and there is quite a bit of discussion going on in the world about this particular subject. Most of the men that chime in say "No it's not a deal breaker, but I won't marry/live/have-a-relationship-with you." Or they say "Be up front and honest. Most men it is a deal breaker but guess what, they're going to pressure you into something you don't want to do and why would you put yourself in that situation?" I like that statement, they are being honest, but they are also being selfish.
Yes, relationships are all about being honest and compromises and blah blah blah! But no one should compromise what you fundamentally are not comfortable with.
So anyway, after that happened he got his sad face on (and if I try to talk to him about it he'll just say "forget it. It's over and done with.") and goes "okay, I guess you don't want sex..." and really, I wasn't that horny to begin with. I mean, could I have had sex? Sure. Am I greatly upset that we didn't? No.
So here I am, up in our bedroom in the god-damned fucking hot humidity writing a blog post. UGH! FML!
Sasha and I have been together for six years. SIX. Not once during that time did I ever give him bj's on a regular basis. In fact, most of the relationship goes like this: every few months or so we get into a huge argument over "doesn't it make you feel good to make me feel good?"
...No it doesn't.
That's a harsh thing to say. I'm not saying I don't get enjoyment when he gets enjoyment. He's using that question as a way to try and get me to like oral sex.
S: "You like it when we have sex, right?"
Me: "Yes"
S: "It feels good, right?"
Me: "Yeah."
S: "We both feel good when doing it, right?"
Me: "Yeess." (What's your point here buddy?!)
S: "Well I get pleasure from making my partners feel good, and you get pleasure from us having sex, and blowjobs make me feel good. Why don't you want to make me feel good?!"
AND THERE IT IS LADIES AND GENTLEMEN!! The question ALL men ask to guilt their partners into giving head! and AHHHHAHWEHWEHWEHIAWEGHILAWGHIPAgHEGHIPweghipWEGHIPwgenlkWEGHweghipWGEHIPwge!!!!!!!!!!!!
IT DOESN'T FEEL GOOD TO ME!!! I'm on my knees, my jaw hurts, YOU TAKE FORTY FUCKING MINUTES TO CUM!! NO ONE WANTS TO BOB THEIR HEAD UP AND DOWN FOR FORTY FUCKING MINUTES!!
And you know what he says? "Well if you don't go down on me, I won't go down on you."
And my answer? "Okay." *Shrugs* "No seriously. That's okay if you go down on me. You can pride yourself on being great at oral (male or female - he's bi), and that's you. But I don't like cunnilingus. It's really not that great."
The only time I actually liked a guy doing down on me, was the first time it was ever done. I was 19 and it was awesome. But I had an experienced guy going down on me and it was MY FIRST TIME. Everything is sensitive down there. No matter who's done it, it's never been as good as it was that first time. Maybe I'm looking for it to be?
But anyway, there have been a few times where Sasha has gone down on me and made me cum and it feels awesome. But he ruins it all by going "Okay my turn!" ...wha-wha-what?! That was not part of this deal. If we're fooling around and you decide to go south, I am in no way obligated to take the trip with you. And then it just turns into a fight.
I've googled the phrase "I hate blowjobs" and there is quite a bit of discussion going on in the world about this particular subject. Most of the men that chime in say "No it's not a deal breaker, but I won't marry/live/have-a-relationship-with you." Or they say "Be up front and honest. Most men it is a deal breaker but guess what, they're going to pressure you into something you don't want to do and why would you put yourself in that situation?" I like that statement, they are being honest, but they are also being selfish.
Yes, relationships are all about being honest and compromises and blah blah blah! But no one should compromise what you fundamentally are not comfortable with.
So anyway, after that happened he got his sad face on (and if I try to talk to him about it he'll just say "forget it. It's over and done with.") and goes "okay, I guess you don't want sex..." and really, I wasn't that horny to begin with. I mean, could I have had sex? Sure. Am I greatly upset that we didn't? No.
So here I am, up in our bedroom in the god-damned fucking hot humidity writing a blog post. UGH! FML!
Friday, October 15, 2010
Dream
I don't think I can live this lifestyle anymore.
I know what I want in my future and I think I've reached the point where I have to choose. Be with Sasha or try and strive for my dream life.
I had a dream a year ago, that caused me to wake up crying. In it, we broke up because he wasn't able to commit to marrying me (Not because he was poly) and I left. I found myself in Washington DC as a speech writer and he was in Baltimore as a teacher and being with his brother (he's an identical twin and they haven't lived in the same town for almost a decade and it wears on both of them). I was working a press conference when Sasha walked up. We were cordial but there was still pain. During our chat a girl who was the exact opposite of me, short/blonde/dumb, walked up and I discovered that they were getting married.
When I discussed the dream with him we were in NO way ready for marriage and he flat out said "So I ended up with the type of girl that I can't stand?" and that got us talking about the possibility of marriage and actually working towards it.
Tart came in the picture almost a year after this dream so she was not the cause of it. I have always thought that dream was more of my paranoia and not being good enough (for anybody) than my subconscious telling me what I should be doing. But after that I went back to school, am about to graduate, and searching for a great job. I wouldn't have done that, I don't think, without that dream and us discussing it.
But I now wonder if that dream was meant to tell me something more.
I know what I want in my future and I think I've reached the point where I have to choose. Be with Sasha or try and strive for my dream life.
I had a dream a year ago, that caused me to wake up crying. In it, we broke up because he wasn't able to commit to marrying me (Not because he was poly) and I left. I found myself in Washington DC as a speech writer and he was in Baltimore as a teacher and being with his brother (he's an identical twin and they haven't lived in the same town for almost a decade and it wears on both of them). I was working a press conference when Sasha walked up. We were cordial but there was still pain. During our chat a girl who was the exact opposite of me, short/blonde/dumb, walked up and I discovered that they were getting married.
When I discussed the dream with him we were in NO way ready for marriage and he flat out said "So I ended up with the type of girl that I can't stand?" and that got us talking about the possibility of marriage and actually working towards it.
Tart came in the picture almost a year after this dream so she was not the cause of it. I have always thought that dream was more of my paranoia and not being good enough (for anybody) than my subconscious telling me what I should be doing. But after that I went back to school, am about to graduate, and searching for a great job. I wouldn't have done that, I don't think, without that dream and us discussing it.
But I now wonder if that dream was meant to tell me something more.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Birthday
It's been almost three weeks since I've posted. That's because things have been going well.
The situation with Zi and I are that she has come to understand that all I wanted was an apology. That she acted hastily and didn't listen to a word I said. She chooses however to say "If you break up with him, I'm still here and I love you; if you stay with him, I still love you." If that's not trying to make me change sides, I don't know what else. But she did pose one question that I think EVERY mono asks themselves "If it were wrong, why don't [we] tell [anyone]?"
Our answer is "Because they wouldn't understand." But really? Is that what we think? Because I still think it's wrong that after five years of love and devotion to go and pursue some tart half-way across the country. But the answer is true. In the case of my grandparents, and as I told my sister, I have no problem telling them if A.) It were any of their business and B.) Grammy wouldn't say "I think Sasha should move out of the bedroom and in with your roommate and you should pay less rent because you furnished the place." (I'm sorry to say that is a direct quote.) Which is what I had to tell Zi more than three times in our last conversation.
She finally came around and said that she did act hastily. And it was because she didn't understand. I had to point out, how many times did I say "ASK ME!" Because the answer isn't going to be with Grammy and Papa. I'll have the answers you're looking for. Another point that was made is that I haven't for a long time trusted her with any information. Because it seemed that no matter what I told her, it would get back to Grammy and Papa. That brought up another topic that I don't ever talk to them. And really why should I when she speaks for me?
Anyway, back on topic. Sasha's birthday was on Monday. But I had nothing to give him. He said he doesn't want anything. He was downsized on September 30th and until he can be approved for unemployment the financial responsibility falls on me. That stress and the stress of getting approved for graduation (Which was done yesterday) and the anticipation/dread of starting more hours at work and not knowing where or IF I'll get a job in my field all came to a head when I saw one thing.
A birthday card from Tart.
I'm not going to lie I almost hid it. Opened it up, read what filth she wrote and tore it up and threw it away. But on the precipice of that decision Sasha called out for me and came down the hallway. I handed him the important mail with the card on top. All he did was move it to the back and look at the other letters. He didn't say a word and it probably was because I was standing right there. I should feel at least OKAY about that, but I don't. I DON'T want her sending things to our house. I want to say, "If he's going to have an affair, then I don't want to know about it!" But just short of e-mailing her and telling her to not send anything to the house, I can't do that.
However I let out my emotion because of disappointing news I discovered. I play an MMO, something that Sasha got me into, called World of Warcraft. I love playing the game. I play a gnome, not because they are funny or for the racial specializations. But because I respect their story and I think they are cute and awesome. For a month they had a quest to do something that I have wanted to do since I started playing. Well with the game update last night it was taken down and I wasn't able to do it. So I let EVERYTHING that I had been feeling come out with the disappointment of that one thing. Sure I was upset, but not upset enough to cry off and on for 30 minutes (which is what I did).
I know that I should be upfront, but when we hit hard times like this before, Sasha didn't burden me with the stress so I'm going to do the same. All he needs to worry about is finding a job and I can take care of everything else. He's been doing it for 4 years, now it's my turn.
I know that some mono's are friends with their poly's other legs. Other's make themselves into a triangle, and some are like me and don't want anything to do with the other. I am blessed to be the Primary of the relationship because if I wasn't then there wouldn't be a relationship. But frankly I almost wish I didn't know anything about her. That I hadn't seen her and he was going behind my back. Now granted, IF he did that, I'd be out of this relationship SO FAST. But Sasha has respected me enough to not say anything about her or about what's going on with that. However, I want to know WHY can't SHE do the same?! Is it wrong to ask that of her? To STAY OUT OF OUR LIVES!! I'm sorry, to NOT make her presence known at my house? Because if she ever comes into town she is NOT allowed in this house. I just feel that people would say it's wrong to ask that, but to me I think it's perfectly acceptable.
The situation with Zi and I are that she has come to understand that all I wanted was an apology. That she acted hastily and didn't listen to a word I said. She chooses however to say "If you break up with him, I'm still here and I love you; if you stay with him, I still love you." If that's not trying to make me change sides, I don't know what else. But she did pose one question that I think EVERY mono asks themselves "If it were wrong, why don't [we] tell [anyone]?"
Our answer is "Because they wouldn't understand." But really? Is that what we think? Because I still think it's wrong that after five years of love and devotion to go and pursue some tart half-way across the country. But the answer is true. In the case of my grandparents, and as I told my sister, I have no problem telling them if A.) It were any of their business and B.) Grammy wouldn't say "I think Sasha should move out of the bedroom and in with your roommate and you should pay less rent because you furnished the place." (I'm sorry to say that is a direct quote.) Which is what I had to tell Zi more than three times in our last conversation.
She finally came around and said that she did act hastily. And it was because she didn't understand. I had to point out, how many times did I say "ASK ME!" Because the answer isn't going to be with Grammy and Papa. I'll have the answers you're looking for. Another point that was made is that I haven't for a long time trusted her with any information. Because it seemed that no matter what I told her, it would get back to Grammy and Papa. That brought up another topic that I don't ever talk to them. And really why should I when she speaks for me?
Anyway, back on topic. Sasha's birthday was on Monday. But I had nothing to give him. He said he doesn't want anything. He was downsized on September 30th and until he can be approved for unemployment the financial responsibility falls on me. That stress and the stress of getting approved for graduation (Which was done yesterday) and the anticipation/dread of starting more hours at work and not knowing where or IF I'll get a job in my field all came to a head when I saw one thing.
A birthday card from Tart.
I'm not going to lie I almost hid it. Opened it up, read what filth she wrote and tore it up and threw it away. But on the precipice of that decision Sasha called out for me and came down the hallway. I handed him the important mail with the card on top. All he did was move it to the back and look at the other letters. He didn't say a word and it probably was because I was standing right there. I should feel at least OKAY about that, but I don't. I DON'T want her sending things to our house. I want to say, "If he's going to have an affair, then I don't want to know about it!" But just short of e-mailing her and telling her to not send anything to the house, I can't do that.
However I let out my emotion because of disappointing news I discovered. I play an MMO, something that Sasha got me into, called World of Warcraft. I love playing the game. I play a gnome, not because they are funny or for the racial specializations. But because I respect their story and I think they are cute and awesome. For a month they had a quest to do something that I have wanted to do since I started playing. Well with the game update last night it was taken down and I wasn't able to do it. So I let EVERYTHING that I had been feeling come out with the disappointment of that one thing. Sure I was upset, but not upset enough to cry off and on for 30 minutes (which is what I did).
I know that I should be upfront, but when we hit hard times like this before, Sasha didn't burden me with the stress so I'm going to do the same. All he needs to worry about is finding a job and I can take care of everything else. He's been doing it for 4 years, now it's my turn.
I know that some mono's are friends with their poly's other legs. Other's make themselves into a triangle, and some are like me and don't want anything to do with the other. I am blessed to be the Primary of the relationship because if I wasn't then there wouldn't be a relationship. But frankly I almost wish I didn't know anything about her. That I hadn't seen her and he was going behind my back. Now granted, IF he did that, I'd be out of this relationship SO FAST. But Sasha has respected me enough to not say anything about her or about what's going on with that. However, I want to know WHY can't SHE do the same?! Is it wrong to ask that of her? To STAY OUT OF OUR LIVES!! I'm sorry, to NOT make her presence known at my house? Because if she ever comes into town she is NOT allowed in this house. I just feel that people would say it's wrong to ask that, but to me I think it's perfectly acceptable.
Tuesday, September 28, 2010
New Beginnings
Sasha was notified today that they are letting him go from his position at work.
I saw a facebook post from a few hours ago stating "Does anyone know where I can get a job?" I thought he was talking about a second job or in general. He has been talking about finding a new/second job for a few months now because he hates where he works. But then I checked my e-mail and got the following message:
They are letting me go from work. I have until the end of the week, but unless a miracle happens I need to find a new job...
He's been unemployed during our relationship before, and he went on unemployment. I don't know if he is going to do it, and I don't know if he'll be accepted for it with the economy as it is. However, the big problem is that I'm not through with school for a few weeks. And my office won't be offering extra hours for a long time so I can't get anything over my 20 per week. If I could get 40 then we could survive on my income (even if we were paying full rent). I'll have to talk to my job coach to see if that's possible.
However, I know that Sasha is going to say "Don't worry. Everything will be okay. We'll get through this, we've gotten through worse before." I just hope that this won't stint my job search.
I saw a facebook post from a few hours ago stating "Does anyone know where I can get a job?" I thought he was talking about a second job or in general. He has been talking about finding a new/second job for a few months now because he hates where he works. But then I checked my e-mail and got the following message:
They are letting me go from work. I have until the end of the week, but unless a miracle happens I need to find a new job...
He's been unemployed during our relationship before, and he went on unemployment. I don't know if he is going to do it, and I don't know if he'll be accepted for it with the economy as it is. However, the big problem is that I'm not through with school for a few weeks. And my office won't be offering extra hours for a long time so I can't get anything over my 20 per week. If I could get 40 then we could survive on my income (even if we were paying full rent). I'll have to talk to my job coach to see if that's possible.
However, I know that Sasha is going to say "Don't worry. Everything will be okay. We'll get through this, we've gotten through worse before." I just hope that this won't stint my job search.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Abuse
I have done what people would consider the unthinkable. I have cut my sister out of my life. I discovered last night that the night I told her about my situation she turned around and immediately told my grandparents. Her excuse/reason? That she's "scared for me". That she thinks Sasha is "emotionally abusing" me. And all throughout our fight, even when I told her what my plan was, she still would not apologize.
Zi, has been in physically and emotionally abusive relationships. The first one was both physically and emotionally abusive and lasted for almost three years. Years later when she was rebounding from a GOOD long-term relationship, she entered an emotionally abusive relationship. With my help, she was able concretely identify the situation and leave it (she had her suspicions and I confirmed). Now, she thinks that is what is happening to me. But she has no proof. She thinks that Sasha is "controlling" me. And no matter how many times I told her in the first conversation that our communication has risen and how open our feelings are, she refuses to believe it.
She went so far as to CALL Sasha last night, and belittle him. He told me that for most of the conversation he sat there listening to her "cry". If anyone has a sibling then you know they have developed skills on how to get what they want. One of Zi's is crying to make you upset. I have no doubt she was crying. But she wasn't crying because she was upset (or it wasn't the main reason), she was crying to manipulate the situation and to try and get Sasha to agree and fall into her agenda. She even brought the question of marriage into it. He simply told her that I, L, have been thinking about marriage for four years now so that's not a new revelation.
Out of all of this, it was SASHA who told me to forgive her even if she wasn't sorry. For me to not cut Zi out of my life. HE was the one who told me that family is all you have left in this world and not to make such an extreme decision. How is THAT abusive?
*****
Emotional abuse is defined:
The only one that I can see having any validity would be "Invalidation".
Invalidation is to reject, ignore, mock, tease, judge, or diminish someone's feelings. It is an attempt to control how they feel and for how long they feel it.
This is a form of abuse that we experience from childhood. But from what I have learned about the majority of poly's are that they are the opposite. They do the exact opposite. They give monos more attention, validate feelings, and accept who they are more readily than a mono would to a poly.
After writing this, it's almost as if I am the abusive one in the relationship.
*****
I wonder if family members and/or friends try and push this reasoning on mono's to leave their poly partner.
I do wonder if people view me as a victim (A role that Zi tried to play last night because I said that I would kill her from 1700 miles away and on a voicemail message). I am not a victim, I don't like to be. I once played that card and had very good reason to. Growing up the way I did, how could someone not? But I have grown up from that person and fully accept that things I do have consequences. I had just hoped Zi had come to the same conclusion.
Zi, has been in physically and emotionally abusive relationships. The first one was both physically and emotionally abusive and lasted for almost three years. Years later when she was rebounding from a GOOD long-term relationship, she entered an emotionally abusive relationship. With my help, she was able concretely identify the situation and leave it (she had her suspicions and I confirmed). Now, she thinks that is what is happening to me. But she has no proof. She thinks that Sasha is "controlling" me. And no matter how many times I told her in the first conversation that our communication has risen and how open our feelings are, she refuses to believe it.
She went so far as to CALL Sasha last night, and belittle him. He told me that for most of the conversation he sat there listening to her "cry". If anyone has a sibling then you know they have developed skills on how to get what they want. One of Zi's is crying to make you upset. I have no doubt she was crying. But she wasn't crying because she was upset (or it wasn't the main reason), she was crying to manipulate the situation and to try and get Sasha to agree and fall into her agenda. She even brought the question of marriage into it. He simply told her that I, L, have been thinking about marriage for four years now so that's not a new revelation.
Out of all of this, it was SASHA who told me to forgive her even if she wasn't sorry. For me to not cut Zi out of my life. HE was the one who told me that family is all you have left in this world and not to make such an extreme decision. How is THAT abusive?
*****
Emotional abuse is defined:
Emotional abuse is like brain washing in that it systematically wears away at the victim's self-confidence, sense of self-worth, trust in their own perceptions, and self-concept. Whether it is done by constant berating and belittling, by intimidation, or under the guise of "guidance," "teaching", or "advice," the results are similar. Eventually, the recipient of the abuse loses all sense of self and remnants of personal value. Emotional abuse cuts to the very core of a person, creating scars that may be far deeper and more lasting that physical ones. In fact there is research to this effect. With emotional abuse, the insults, insinuations, criticism and accusations slowly eat away at the victim's self-esteem until she is incapable of judging the situation realistically. She has become so beaten down emotionally that she blames herself for the abuse. Her self-esteem is so low that she clings to the abuser.
Emotional abuse victims can become so convinced that they are worthless that they believe that no one else could want them. They stay in abusive situations because they believe they have nowhere else to go. Their ultimate fear is being all alone.
Out of this definition, I can see how one can twist the words into their belief. Zi however is not smart enough to find this information out (and unfortunately that is not pure criticism). But there is one statement that I do find myself believing. And that is the very last one.
As a mono, I fear that Sasha will leave me, or pay less attention to me, and that I will be alone. I have spent five years with him and giving that up, would be extremely hard and I would be alone. However, I have been essentially alone for all of my life. I didn't have many friends (if any) growing up, and I learned how to cope on my own and be self-sufficient. If anything I am a person who has trained myself to accept being alone and maybe even crave it. One reason may be that I can not control others and/or life so if I only have myself to control all will be well.
BUT he is not pushing me away. He is not belittling me, he is not wearing away at my self-worth. In Zi's argument he is not holding me back. When I posed the questions of how is encouraging me to go to school, find a job anywhere in the world, and follow my dreams, holding me back? She had no response. In fact, I don't even think she listened to the question. However, when I posed those to Sasha he said "She's not being rational, but I fear that you are holding yourself back for me."
*****
There are different types of Emotional Abuse
- Abusive Expectations
- Aggressing
- Constant Chaos
- Denying
- Dominating
- Emotional Blackmail
- Invalidation
- Minimizing
- Unpredictable Responses
- Verbal Assaults
The only one that I can see having any validity would be "Invalidation".
Invalidation is to reject, ignore, mock, tease, judge, or diminish someone's feelings. It is an attempt to control how they feel and for how long they feel it.
This is a form of abuse that we experience from childhood. But from what I have learned about the majority of poly's are that they are the opposite. They do the exact opposite. They give monos more attention, validate feelings, and accept who they are more readily than a mono would to a poly.
After writing this, it's almost as if I am the abusive one in the relationship.
*****
I wonder if family members and/or friends try and push this reasoning on mono's to leave their poly partner.
I do wonder if people view me as a victim (A role that Zi tried to play last night because I said that I would kill her from 1700 miles away and on a voicemail message). I am not a victim, I don't like to be. I once played that card and had very good reason to. Growing up the way I did, how could someone not? But I have grown up from that person and fully accept that things I do have consequences. I had just hoped Zi had come to the same conclusion.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
I'm going to kill my sister
I'm going to kill her. I'm going to straight up kill her. She told my grandmother about Sasha!
And WHY did she tell my grandmother you ask? Because instead of double checking the "info" page on facebook she took the little box on the left hand side at it's word. And what's in that little box? The question should be "what's NOT in the little box?" What's not in the little box is "In a relationship with: L" But it is IN FACT on his info page.
So instead of WAITING to see what I had to say, my sister the GENIUS that she is decides to tell my grandmother about Sasha's "Indiscretion in Kansas". NOW my family wants NOTHING to do with him and they want him to move out of the bedroom and have my part of the rent decreased because I furnished the house (side note all of the furnishings were free).
I don't know what to do. My family DOES NOT accept this lifestyle, hell I don't even accept it!
I'm going to kill my sister!
And WHY did she tell my grandmother you ask? Because instead of double checking the "info" page on facebook she took the little box on the left hand side at it's word. And what's in that little box? The question should be "what's NOT in the little box?" What's not in the little box is "In a relationship with: L" But it is IN FACT on his info page.
So instead of WAITING to see what I had to say, my sister the GENIUS that she is decides to tell my grandmother about Sasha's "Indiscretion in Kansas". NOW my family wants NOTHING to do with him and they want him to move out of the bedroom and have my part of the rent decreased because I furnished the house (side note all of the furnishings were free).
I don't know what to do. My family DOES NOT accept this lifestyle, hell I don't even accept it!
I'm going to kill my sister!
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